I have to admit I haven't been a big fan of blogging lately. I'm sure other people go through these phases, and I know it will pass, but I just can't get myself to want to write anything. I should say I can't get myself to post anything, because I have written blogs and then I just decided not to post them...it's really wierd. I guess its so easy to feel like you have to have a good story or a bunch of pictures, and since I've had neither of those lately I haven't wanted to be boring. But then I remember the reason I blog is to keep everyone updated and to keep my own personal journal. As crazy as this sounds I am also turned off by the thought of having people judge me by what I say. This is the time of year when all the students give final presentations on issues in our classes, and one person talked about blogging. We also talked about blogging in my law classes. The bottom line is that employers and all kinds of people search blogs, facebook, and other personal pages to see if there is anything that might make them not want to hire somebody...and its perfectly legal.

I hate the idea of being censored. Not that I have anything to worry about...at least I hope, but the thought of it turns me the opposite direction. Its funny because the last time I remember this happening was in 2nd grade. My teacher encouraged us to write more freely, and get our feelings out on paper. I didn't want to write about boats floating in moats, and goats eating oats like I did in 1st grade so this was my opportunity to shine. I wrote little "action" stories, and I was really descriptive about everything. Then my teacher told my mom she was worried about me because of the things I wrote about, makes me sound like an animal. All I can remember is how mad I was that I was told to write freely, but that I really couldn't. To give you an idea of where my mind was in 2nd grade, here's an example of a poem I wrote that we found the other day going through stuff (its Joni's favorite).

Jack and Jill went up the hill

To fetch a pail of water

Jack fell down and broke his crown royal

and now Jill is dating some guy from L.A.

Who knows what other gems I might have had if my teacher wasn't censoring me.

I have been learning a lot this semester about how past behavior influences future behavior when it comes to hiring decisions. Since I wore the same pair of corduroy's every day in 1st grade, what does that say about me now? I must have had a crush on every girl in my class at a different time, and I ate glue to impress the girl sitting next to me, does that mean I might not be a good fit for a company? Okay, enough of this...you get my point?

Speaking of horses, I am actually pretty excited for the Kentucky Derby tomorrow. Mom, I have been telling all my friends about how you sit 2 feet from the television all day during the Kentucky Derby. Each horse has his own little story, and I'm sure when they get a good narrator and some good music, she'll be crying. Any one have any favorites? I like Big Truck just cause thats a great name for a horse...Long Limo must have been taken. I actually think Colonel John will win even though he's never run on a dirt track. I see the favorite, Big Brown, taking 3rd. Mark my words, this is how its going to play out. Don't even try to talk horse trash to me...you proud of me mom?